Dear Tamuh, 

I hope this message brings more clarity to my experience with you. This is my second Kashmiri massage with you. My favorite one. I like how you tune in with my energy. The way you touch, your presence, your intuition in moving super fine during the session. I never experienced that kind of pleasure. It's not like pleasure basically. It's like your presence, your attunnement, to my body. I feel like drooping very easy into my body and very fast. And then it is easy to feel pleasure in my body.

I am a very busy woman and  I'm a very masculine woman. I am always in my head. I struggled to receive pleasure in my body, that´s why I fall sick very badly three years ago. And I find it very difficult to feel my body and to be in touch with my pleasure. 

If I would live around you, I would have regular Sessions with you, maybe once a month or every two weeks. I will love to have regular massage like that.

Actually I was traveling around the world and experiencing a lot of tantric massage from many different therapist, so far. Interesting, your type of massage is very gentle without penetration.

And about the transformative experience of the Session. I am surprised, during your touch I was able to trigger brief and to grief and to be connected to my mothers trauma. It feels like, that I releasing my mothers pain.  She is unable to feel pleasure. I am inherent her pain.  And during the sessions you help me to release the blockages and the pain in my body. And I am able to feel a lot of safety, opening in my body to feel pleasure and I cry. I feel the pleasure for my mother, because she is not able to feel pleasure and finally I can. I feel like serving this pleasure to my mother. I even talking about this, opening my heart. I am able to sending this pleasure to my mum.

My mum is very sick and that time of the sessions, when I come back, my mum is getting better, even she not remembering anything, because of amnesia. And she is coming back from hospital and she is doing well. So interesting, how my healing process is effecting her.

Surprisingly, after a few months after the session, I can see how my body energetically changed. I am able to contain more pleasure in my body. Like whenever I have intimate connection with my partners or with other men, I feel like easily drop into my body. I feel like more connected to my body then never before. 

One more thing. What I also appreciate also during the massage, like, there is one moment I remember. I cried, because I am was able to experience the feelings, that I desire. I was in a state of being of deep honoring.

All my life I felt not that way with men. Touching with honoring, respect and devotion. And I am finally able to know how that feels and more precision in how it can feel. That's very special for me. I think it your intention, presence and heart.

Normally when I am touched by men, I feel sexual energy in my body, but not in my heart.

With you, my heart is leading more the body.

I feel, all what I said inside of me.

I feel your love. I am touched.

Thank you. Deep bow to you. 

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